Part Two
| Posted by Ivan on May 06, 1998 at 10:13:14: IT'S NOT EASY WITH ME I had one long and beautiful relationship, she was by my side in the times of best successes and the support in the times of worst crisis. With me as I am, was not an easy task. I don't like losing, in fact, I hate losing. And when I lose a match, I become fierce and aggressive, lose tolerance, start to insult everyone around me...It would be better for us not to see each other, but still I think it's all her fault. In the meantime, I've become a bit maturer and now when I lose I'm not searching for guilt anywhere except inside Goran Ivanisevic I'M NEVER THERE But from her point of view, what if I'm not there when she needs a support and by saying "I love you". I would make her things much easier. My ex was studying and as much as I could I was trying to be with her. But she had to face the fact that I, due to my commitments, would not be there when she will be going through the hard times. Because tennis is the love of my life, bigger than any woman. I live only for tennis and that's the crucial point and the key problem with all my relationships. Women by nature like to be No. 1, it's hard for them not to be the absolute queens. For me tennis is the bottom line, the most important thing in my life and the woman with me has to know that she would not be the first thing in my world. Tennis requires the whole me, all my energy, all my power, all my concentration. There's not much leftover to give. Is that selfish? Yes, it is, but that's the only way it goes. |